feeling what is, missing what was, awaiting what will.

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lyrics:

the air i breathe
the trees i see
it doesn’t all add up
i find it hard to believe
that i can be enough
i give all i can and only ask to be loved

the lonely man that i became
is all that i’ve become
my thoughts are tinted green cause they’re the ones i’m jealous of
broken record on repeat until you lift me up

but thats all that i am
i’m not who i once was
and when i finally change
maybe that’s when i’ll find love
i’m holding myself back
i’ve wanted to get better
don’t know why i act like i can’t change the weather

i know it will be over soon
but soon ain’t soon enough
the in between from now till then
is what what i’m afraid of
staying sane’s a layman’s game
lose if you live too much

i’m paranoid i’m living wrong
i’m socially behind
conversation’s hard if it’s not with me in my mind
the more i get to talk the words get easier to find

but thats all that i am
i’m not who i once was
and when i finally change
maybe that’s when i’ll find love
i’m holding myself back
i’ve wanted to get better
don’t know why i act like i can’t change the weather