This one was really tough for both of us. We recorded this song from Spring Awakening because one of our OG fans of Super Thought Bros (twitch.tv) requested it, and it's a beautiful track.

TRIGGERS: suicide, grief, guilt.
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To be honest, I'm torn between appreciation for the beautiful music, and the uncomfortable feeling that maybe because it's so beautiful, it might borderline glorify the truly ugly reality of suicide. I have very personal experiences, cycles, struggles, emotions within this realm -- enough that I feel the need to post this song with a note, especially during these chaotic times where unfortunately this is a grim reality that some people face.

The truth is, most people don't realize, or take action, until a person is gone. Sometimes, even if they do, the outcome is the same. Sometimes it's truly never enough. And honestly, people are living through their own demons and don't always have the capacity to gauge how "serious" another person's situation is, or even to face their own feelings about the other human being gone. It's not anyone's fault.

And while it's dreadful that survivors have to deal with their grief, the ultimate reality about suicide is that you're gone. End. Finis. No more choice, no more potential, no more you. No "seeing how people miss you." No more "what if's," no more chances to rewrite or continue your story in the world. No more ability to see if the next page is a better one; no way to experience it. All i can say is, when i am unwell, i don’t experience anything as “well,” and my reality, my norm, is colored heavily by that. But when i am well, i can see clearly when i’ve been unwell. Hold on till you can see the other side...it’s only always worth it. Mental health is important, but it doesn’t define you and shouldn’t end you.

Some things are just plain ugly, and suicide is one of them. I will not sugarcoat it, ever.

Here's the statement and hotline that Koray had in his original post: "If you or anyone you know is struggling with these kinds of thoughts, please call the #suicidehotline at 1-800-273-8255."

Don't give up. There are more than enough people in the world who do care, and who are affected by your presence and existence, even if they aren't the ones you'd think to seek out... Every person matters... Hold on; persist. ❤

Maybe this song speaks something beautiful to you. Maybe it feels like a survivor's self-indulgence. I don't know...but that's what art is, right? Interpretation. We have the right to love it, or loathe it, or sometimes both.

Here is "Left Behind," and in the least, I fully value every collaboration that Koray and I produce, and he and his voice are such true gems in the world.